assalamualaikum

now 3.45am and i have just wake up from a nightmare. think so. i feel something different lately. like always getting worry without any reason. once i awake, i text him. no respond. i call him. no answer. tengah tido agaknya. nevermind. so i know today is the 20th of ramadhan but still wanna wish "happy fasting to all muslims. hope this ramadhan is better than last year" insyaAllah.

i dont know what  i'm feeling right now. last year was really a great year in my entire life. i had celebrated ramadhan with you. almost everyday asking the same questions * "puasa tak?" "hari ni sahur apa?" "hari ni makan apa untuk bbuka?" "sihat?" * and of course the most happiest thing when we planned to wear new baju raya with the same colour. how wonderful was that. this year is so much different. we are having ramadhan in our own way. no more main questions. and the most painful when i have to face trial exam by my own. i have Allah, family, and friends but it will be more complete when you are here. almost everyday i text you, asking you to pray for me. how i wish you are here. how i wish you know  that i miss you. i miss to share my daily routine with you. em. nevermind. always take this as a test from Him and i know if we face it with patience insyaAllah oneday everything will end with full of happiness. we are being like this since May but alhamdulillah, i still can hold on the pain untill today. thank you Allah :)

anyway i'm here for asking your forgiveness. i know i have did lots of bad things to you. the old me was bad. but alhamdulillah. i'm change now. i got this from twitter

  " kita manusia lemah. sedangkan nabi pun boleh maafkan umatnya apa lagi kita manusia yang hina ni " 

it really make me realize how wonderful we are if we always forgive peoples' mistakes, no matter how many time peoples' do such a bad things to you, just forgive and forget. trust me, Allah will give a good reward to you. i'm reminding everyone and myself.