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Thursday
*last entry before i go back to my hometown*
today my school was having a farewell party for our principal. it should be event. before the event start we have a program, tadarus al-quran. all the students who participate will be on the stage and read al-quran together with our ustaz.
about 10am, our principal came. he give some talked. then all the student line up and principal will walk along.. lepas habis majlis tu its time *buat muka puss in boot & mntak duit raya dekat semua orang*. haaa know what i have take a picture with my maths teacher. i mean us. my friends and i. the teacher was soooooooooooooooooo cute. eventho' he's married and have a little cute baby boy but he still be like a friend when teaching us. ehem k dah jangan pk bebukan.
around 11am all students can go back except my class and few more classes. since all the teachers are having a meeting so we gathered in the class, play the song entitle "suasana di hari raya" via youtube via phone. then we made a video which was everyone have to give some wish.
when teachers finished their last meeting with the principal, we line up. again/ but the second line up was quiet sad (?) maybe sebab dorang pasang lagu sedih thats why rasa macam sebak sikit. but i still can smile. aien & wana dah menangis. we calm them down. plan macam nak bagi dorang happy so ajak pegi kelas. but err once kami sampai dekat kelas, everyone start hugging each other, sambil mintak maaf. ada yang menangis. ada yang akan menangis and ada yang tak menangis langsung.
i hugged all my sisters. then i looked at one of them, muka merah. hidung merah. mata merah. sah dah. i asked her to come and hug me but she was like *kejup lagi la*. she was not looking at me. not at all. and i was like *kenapa? nanti dah seminggu tak jumpa..............................*
few minutes later, she stands up talk with her friends and ............. come towards me.......... and hug me while crying.. at first i was just okay. tapi bila dia cakap something sambil menangis, em itu sangat tidak ok.
she said this to me :
" lepas kita gaduh, memang kita dah tak rapat macam dulu. aku nak hang tau, aku tak bermaksud nak buat macam tu kat hang. aku rindu hang "
" dah laaa,, kita okay ja kaaaaan. kita still macam dulu cuma hang sekarang duduk jauh. dah laaa "
****both crying****
to be honest, since end of year 2010 we were being so close. we share everything together. we text everyday. when it comes holidays, we webcam every night. like i said, this year was quiet challenged. kami start gadoh and our friendship makin renggang. tipu la kan if i said i dont feel anything. i always think about that. few months we dont talk to each other. till the day she gave me a gift. i got a letter form her. yes i'm crying while read the letter. in my mind was *yeah, i miss you too. i miss you more than you ever thought*. so i decide to gave something to her and reply her letter. kami ni kuno. main surat je. hihi. since that day kami macam rapat balik. selalu tegur. gurau sekali. amik gamba pun ramai ramai. i can feel we are getting closer like before. oh but not forgetting my twin who i always bully and joke around. two of them such a good siblings
this year i lost two person. she is one of them. but now i got her back. at first i want to share something about the other one. but em. i dont know. i just can say i hope this raya i still can celebrate with the person like last year. i dont know i should highlight the date 18.8 or not because when it comes the date, it mean i have *know/be together* with the person for 1year 9months. lagi berapa bulan ja genap lah 2tahun. the person really brought happiness in my life. my life was so un-describe-tively when the person be part of me. but everything, the happiness, the joyful, the love, the cares, already gone. everyday i think about us. everyday i stalk your profile. everyday i check my phone and everyday i'm praying that oneday we will be like before. but Allah knows better. maybe not today, not tomorrow or not even next year. but oneday. yeah, oneday we will be like before. i never give up on Him and i also never give up on us.
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bytheway people,
i am Ezzah Jamilyn Bt Ahmad Suzaime want to wish you
"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI"
"MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN"
mohon maaf jika ada terkasar bahasa, tertengking lebih and etc.
i am not perfect, i make mistakes.
enjoy your holidays!
assalamualaikum
words spilled @ 2:11 am /
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